I remember why I decided not to have a public blog. When a whole lot of of self-censorship happens when I write an entry, it becomes really frustrating to me. If given a choice not bounded by occupational limitations, people who matter will know I speak my mind, without qualms. I can't help but feel sincerity may be lacking with some of those who are politically correct all the time. And I admit to not being able to achieve it, it's simply too tiring.

All these mixed emotions, thinking about what I am "allowed" to say and the sensitivities that surround certain issues, it makes me feel that blogging is not always a free for all space. Some bloggers practise absolutely no censorship, which is something I respect, if only they are also willing to take the flak that may potentially come along with it.

Some complaints I have heard are defensive and condescending so from being an exchange place for ideas and thoughts, it becomes a battle ground with different parties using nasty words or methods to save their own agendas. When I see instances like this, I tell myself that every entry that is to be lodged is a strong point of view I want to convey but also open to listening to the other side of the story.

I am unaffected by naysayers because I have come a long way in differentiating those who truly care and matter and those who don't. But I detest the speculation that comes after, like how silence is a sign of defence or agreement when in fact, it is just a window period for the truth to prevail.

Perhaps, if you have a strong point of view that does not have the space for alternative viewpoints to strengthen your bigger view of the world's happenings, then publish a book, have a private blog, write a press release and disable your comments function.